Therapy??

Can’t think of what to say
I can’t think of what to do
I just think I might be losing my mind
Can’t stop this agony
Cancel my therapy cause
I just thought of you
and now I feel fine

Collecting the strangest conscience
Apathy returns it’s offense
But only after I get moving
Relax and being the change
In time for the newest age
To help me find out what I’m missing in here

Marriage and Weddings

Wow i can't actually believe that i'm going to a friends wedding tomm. Its that time in out lives tho. No doubt we are gonna have fun and make it crazy. But the fact that i am going to a wedding tomm and then chad and laura are having theirs on the 30th of dec still blows my mind. Yeah i can't wait till im married but during college and there is a lot of commitment not to mention the responsiblities.... wow i'm barely adjusted to college life. Seriously can anyone else see amber and mike "married". acting like a married couple is different then being married. Im happy for them tho. It will be good times tomm. and we are sure to make a time they will never forget.

Frivolity......

I finally saw the Harry Potter movie last night. Wow second great movie that I have seen in less than two weeks. Although its been awhile since I have read the book but a lot of it came back when I saw it. I wished it was longer. I would have sat through it. Although Walk the Line and Harry Potter are both good movies they can't really be compared they are two completely different levels.

Happy Birthday

Yeah so I guess I should tell you all that it is my birthday today. I am officially 19. Doesn't really feel all that different I guess. But I have to rub in that I get my birthday off from school and work but I'm pretty board so I will end going out to the store and work for awhile anyway.

O yeah, I hope you are all having a wonderful break as well. Enjoy the time with your families and look forward to Christmas break the semster is almost over for most of us college kids.

Thanksgiving

Today hasn't been too bad. slept in and then went to church to help serve a free thanksgiving meal and had some awesome food. Went for a 5.5 mile run, a little chilly and windy but i made it. Just gonna relax and chill the rest of the day. I guess a day or two of rest isn't so bad after all.

Thanksgiving Break

Yeah this week is going to be pretty much worthless and a waste of time. There isnt a whole we can do for classes until after we get back from break and then its just a two week count down until christmas break. i can't wait for christmas break its gonna be so nice. Hope i see all around then, those of you that have rarely come back anyway. we'll definately need to hang out.

Walk the Line

Austin Casey and I went out on Saturday night. It was casey's one year so austin and him went on a date to El Charro and I took him on a date to the movies, we saw Walk the Line. It is a really good movie. Definately a must see. really surprised me i wasn't sure what to expect or to think of the movie at first but there is a lot of stuff in there. it has 2hour and 13minute run time. Next up though is the Harry Potter movie.

"The Tide"

And there's three, count 'em three
Children playing on the beach
They were eager to learn,
To be taught and to teach

There's Veronica
She's biting her lip
As she watches the waves turn white at the tip
And there's Vada
Radiating with joy
And luckily she still can't stand the sight of a boy
And lastly there's Dade
His hair dances in the wind
And he's wondering what love is
And why it has to end

And he can't understand
How everyone goes on breathing when true love ends
His mother whispers quietly...
Heaven's not a place that you go when you die
It's that moment in life when you actually feel alive
So live for the moment
And take this advice, live by every word
Love is just a hoax so forget anything that you have heard
And live for the moment now

And there's three, count 'em three
Children growing on the beach
They were eager to learn,
To be taught and to teach

There's Veronica
She's licking her lips
As she waits for her real, first passionate kiss
And there's Vada
Can't admit her jealousy
Of her sister Veronica, and how she's so pretty (and how she's so pretty)
Lastly there's Dade
Still sitting on the dock
Ponders his life, and he skips his rocks
And he wonders when his father will return
But he's not coming back

And he can't understand
How everyone goes on breathing when true love ends
His mother whispers quietly...
Heaven's not a place that you go when you die
It's that moment in life when you actually feel alive
So live for the moment
And take this advice, live by every word
Love is just a hoax so forget everything that you have heard (forget everything)

And there's three, count 'em three
Children missing from the beach
They were eager to learn,
To be taught and to teach

But the sad thing
Is that they never lived passed the age of fifteen
Due to neglect from their mother
Who was bed ridden by her ex-lover, their father
She didn't even notice, or pay much attention
As the tide came in and swept her three into the ocean
Now all her advice, it seems useless

No, heaven's not a place that you go when you die
It's that moment in life when you touch her and you feel alive
So live for the moment

And take this advice, live by every word
Love's completely real, so forget anything that you've heard
And live for the moment now

The Spill Canvas

Sunsets and Car Crashes

I see a sense of wonder deep inside your eyes
As we're sparkling and twirling in the twilight
And after three long years, I think that we both need this
So we seal the deal in the parking lot with a kiss

And in case you
And in case you were wondering, you are like a sunset to me
You're all kinds of beautiful as you end my day
And you sweetly retire as stars chase you away

I'd collapse to the grass, with your notes ringing in my head
Let the rain fill my mouth, and in a couple hours I'll be dead
But all the while my lips are whistling our tune
But the beauty lies in how you will revive me soon

And in case you, and in case you
And in case you were wondering, you are like a sunset to me
You're all kinds of beautiful as you end my day
And you sweetly retire as the stars chase you away

And in case you were wondering, you are like a sunset to me
You're all kinds of beautiful as you end my day
And you sweetly retire as the stars chase you away

And in case you were wondering, you are like a hurricane to me
Your violence is beautiful, and your center sweet
Now tell me this, do you know how we'd meet?

And in case you were wondering, you are everything to me (to me)

The Spill Canvas

AudioBlogging

Wow this might just be the coolest thing i have seen yet. Audioblogging now how more attached could you get than being able to post be merely calling and leaving an audio message. I dont know how often ill use but its nice just to know its there if i do need it. so yeah enjoy it.

Weekend Movie Poll

Johnny Cash:Walk the Line or Harry Potter 4: The Goblet of Fire? or both?

Monitor problems

Well I had a 19 inch CRT that I got from the Thrift Store they said it was broke and so I took it home to check it out. Well it was fine so I brought it to college about a week later I figured out what was wrong. Once in a blue moon it would turn everything a lovely tint of pee-yellow. All ya had to do was hit a little and it would go back to white. Well that day is no longer. It has been stuck that yellow for over a week. I went home and switched out an old at home from my parents flat panel which is now at central, with me. Those 19 inch viewsonics take up a lot of room.

Snow is Dangerous

So I went out to eat for my Dad's birthday and I picked up some warmer clothes and switched monitors(thats another story). I was walking back from the Kuyper lot to my dorm and I was almost to the pond. Of course its cold and the wind is blowing and I hear this cracking noise. I stop and just as I turn my head about five feet from an eight foot limb falls about 15 feet out of a pine tree. It was close and scared the crap outta me cuz I stopped and saw it happen. My luck with tress lately has been amiss.

Snow Anyone?

I guess its that time of the year. Rain this morning and then 1-3 inches of snow tonight and this afternoon. the temperatures were in the 60s on saturday. thats Iowa weather for ya. We will see whether our weathermen our right.

Airsoft Wars

well as most of you know we have been warned by the RA's here at central to stop using airsoft guns because they aren't allowed.

Hey guys,

With the recent addition of airsoft guns to our floor and building I just wanted to make you aware of college policy regarding this.

Section 33 of the student handbook says:

Weapons on campus--For security reason, Central does not allow weapons on campus. This includes firearms, non-firearms projectile weapons (BB-guns, paintball guns, Airsoft guns, blows, blowguns etc.), and edged weapons (knives with blades longer than 3', swards, spears, etc.)

If I see anymore airsoft guns I will take them. All other student life officials are to do the same. I hope that this clears anything up. Have a good night.

Well i just purchased three more of them. so i have to hide them all now. the RAs havent said anything recently. Also be aware i can't have my amazonian ancestors blow gun here either, its also against the rules to blow also. So i can't go around blowing....either. sorry guys. ok on a less gay note this whole thing is stupid i think im just going to unload on him at some random time in my darth vader helmet. there isn't a whole lot he can do about it they pose no threat or harm or destruction. ill just take them off campus or put them in my car or neither and just leave them in my room.

Redneck Rollercoaster

Looks like the concensus is that we are going to build ourselves an amusement park ride this summer or sometime. I will do some working on the numbers i guess and see what it would take but we really can't do a whole lot until we get a car and supplies.
Its gonna be a blast if we get this thing done. There will be people lining up to try it out. yeah so i guess thats it. any suggestions or problems you see?

here is the link to where Pommer got the idea.
http://www.ebaumsworld.com/redneckrollercoaster.html

Globe Update

They have erected and installed a lighted map and informational panel where the globe was stored. They started earlier than 7.45 this morning because i rode by on my way to class and they had the cap off and were working. I didnt see the globe anywhere though.

Nothing Better

Will someone please call a surgeon
Who can crack my ribs and repair this broken heart
That you're deserting for better company?
I can't accept that it's over...
I will block the door like a goalie tending the net
In the third quarter of a tied-game rivalry

So just say how to make it right
And i swear i'll do my best to comply

Tell me am i right to think that there could be nothing better
Than making you my bride and slowly growing old together

I feel I must interject here you're getting carried away feeling sorry for yourself
With these revisions and gaps in history
So let me help you remember.
I've made charts and graphs that should finally make it clear.
I've prepared a lecture on why i have to leave

So please back away and let me go
I can't my darling i love you so...

Oh, oh

Tell me am i right to think that there could be nothing better
Than making you my bride and slowly growing old together
Don't you feed me lines about some idealistic future
Your heart won't heal right if you keep tearing out the sutures

I admit that i have made mistakes and i swear
I'll never wrong you again
You've got a lure i can't deny,
But you've had your chance so say goodbye
Say goodbye


Postal Service

Mike and Amber's Wedding

Well... its about that time. We need everyone that is going to the wedding to chip in some dough so that we can afford show our honorable lazy butts up at the wedding. Yeah so far its me and Pommer either send us an email or post. tell us how much you are willing to donate. If you can't get it to one of us before we can cover it until after the wedding as long as we don't have to cover the whole thing. It would be helpful mayb for some good ideas for gifts as well......good gift ideas.

Yesterday's Feelings

Close my eyes and move to the back of my mind
Where worries are washed out to sea
See the changes, people's faces blurred out
Like the sun spots or raindrops

Now all those feelings, those yesterdays feelings will all be lost in time
but today I've wasted away for today is on my mind

Left the only worries I had in my hands
Away from the light in my eyes
Holding tight and try not to hide how I feel
'Cause feelings mean nothing now

All those feelings, those yesterdays feelings will all be lost in time
but today I've wasted away for today is on my mind
(yeah today is on my mind)

Now I can't care to worry
I'm feeling so lonely
Breaking apart all this love in my heart

Close my eyes and move to the back of my mind
Where feelings mean nothing now

All those feelings, those yesterdays feelings will all be lost in time (all be lost in time)
But today I've wasted away for today is on my mind
for today is on my mind
yeah today is on my mind

Now I can't care to worry
I'm feeling so lonely
Breaking apart all this love in my heart

The Used

Inspiring Events

So this weekend was warming up to be another run of the mill adventures. So friday night luke was up at ISU and justin zito and casey showed up at my dorm and we soon met up with brandon. well needless to say we were going to go round up some fun. We can never plan anything it just kind of happens. Well I fell out of a tree and scraped up my back trying to put someones clothes up the tree. brandon was half naked because he was going to jump into the fountain. So yeah i have the branch and the wound to prove it. I'll get the pictures up some time. We went through all the dorms trying to find women to clean it out. Amy Vanworkem(sp?) whose parents are both doctors cleaned it out for me in Mindy's room. Everyone was pretty impressed. thats was pretty much it for the night. Saturday night luke was back in town. We had an airsoft gun fight in my dorm room because justin and casey went to osky and bought automatic guns. We walked around and shot people and then we all went all went to osky to see if we could buy more weapons. needless to say the car was packed with many of them. three aifsoft pistols, two airsoft automatics, an airsoft shotgun, am airsoft rifle, and a butterfly knife. I also purchased a Darth Vader helmet, its a full fledged helmet. I went around dressed in all black to try and freak some people out, even though the central campus was completely dead. Someone took a picture of me on the bridge with their cellphone camera and this one girl in a computer lab freaked out cuz i just walked in sat down at the computer next to her and didnt say anthing. She left running. it was good weekend. o and i can fit myself into a three foot by three foot plexi-glass box.


Well today I'm sick. Fever and splitting headache. I guess thats what i get for having such a good weekend.

Fantasy Football

I tried posting this once lets see if it will work for me now. I have hit a new low Three players on my stating team on a bye week. Thing is only there is only one player that i could have switched and that only would have given my 3.4 points.Fantasy football turned out to be a nightmare no fantasy like they lead you to believe.
I am soon to have a 1-8 record one worse then the Packers record is soon to be. They haven't finished with a losing record in 13 seasons, its crazy. Farve is still breaking records even though his team is playing aweful. the team is missing Ferguson, Green, Fisher is out this week. they have a new o-line this year, and they have the 10th worse defense in the league. Looks like a rebuilding year.

Thievery

It feels good to steal. Well anyway I get back to the Kuyper parking lot on Sunday night and I go to get on bike to go back to my dorm. Well what i find instead is my broken chain lying on the ground with a crappy old beat up bike in its place. Needless to say i was a little pissed. so i walked. Monday i fixed up another bike that came into the store to replace my stolen one. Today i decided to take a ride around campus to look for it, being nice out and all. So i get out of spanish lab and 10 minutes later i am riding the new bike and holding my other bike as i ride along. I found it at a pod and he neglected lock it up. So i have my bike back and he lost his old bike and a seat. They are now both registered and it made my day after sleeping through class this morning.

My eight o' clock

So yeah i felt like crap yesterday because i didnt sleep well at all on monday night. This morning i was gonna get up and do some reading for class but i hit the snooze. Then some how managed to lose my cell phone in my bed somewhere. I have succussfully slept through my first class. But its all good i was "sick".