Subway Challenge

Okay so pommer and i are now officially subway sandwhich makers. We went to King Kong it is a long long long movie. Decent but long. Well after all that we were hungary for some turkey(or chicken and bacon) anyway we made our own sandwhiches and i enjoyed my very sloppy one. Then i helped vos out but taking out the trash for him. Yeah jame did try and steal that picture from the bathroom. hmm thats about it quiet at central. we went to the stauffer house to meet liz but then she didnt show so we colored a picture on their tv screen for them since they didnt have cable and stole some streamers. some girl asked us who we were and what we were doing in her house but she was drunk. Thats that kick off to a month long break im afraid this isn't going to be the end of our fun....

Finals

Well its finals week. Needless to say the entire freshman class at Central is fed up with Intersections. A lot of us on gound south had our finals today. About two o'clock we all decided that we needed to get together and burn our books. Out in the alley behind scholte we had a burn pile of about ten books. the cops and security showed up about an hour and a half later to discover a large pile of ashes. It was pretty funny tho. Central screwed us over had to buy the $95 books and we can't resell them and they are of no use any longer. It was good times they burned well

Change of Plans

I can no longer go to the Pella/PC game. Everyone else can go thats fine I will meet up with you all after the game sometime. Anyone have any more ideas about Saturday night?

Christmas Break

We all need to get together on the Saturday night after we are all done with school. I assume that we can all go chill out and crash the pc/pella basketball game this friday night too. We just need to have a huge party some where. I don't know where yet for sure we will figure something out. But how many are willing to do it.?
Also for new years my house is available for a party. parents are gonna be gone so we can do whatever here. The hot tub is working and such. There will be food and such im sure. we can figure out the details later.

Saturday Nights

Well being finals and all there weren't too many people home and not that we all felt up to doing much anyway. So vos, austin, casey and I went to walmart like we always do making once stop anyway. Casey needed deorderant and austin needed some cold medicine. We were over by the blood pressure monitor and casey stuck his deorderant in the arm band and it filled up all the way. of course we were near some shampoo and such and got the great idea of sticking a large bottle of shampoo into the arm band. Well we didnt quite get the out come we were hoping for. casey had to open the cap and it just kinda oozed out not the big explosion we wanted. o well that was about it. Vos is now driving his sisters car and austin the grand marquis. and casey is buying a new ford f-150 stx 4x4. not much else going on. just waiting for the week of finals to be over.

Fixed You

Indeed Pommer was right I do need to listen to this song. It's lyrics alone seem to be fitting enough even though I haven't heard it yet. I think everyone could learn a little from this song.

"Fix You"

When you try your best, but you don't succeed
When you get what you want, but not what you need
When you feel so tired, but you can't sleep
Stuck in reverse
When the tears come streaming down your face
When you lose something you can't replace
When you love someone, but it goes to waste
Could it be worse?

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

High up above or down below
When you too in love to let it go
If you never try you'll never know
Just what you're worth

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

Tears stream down your face
When you lose something you cannot replace
Tears stream down your face
And I...

Tears stream down on your face
I promise you I will learn from the mistakes
Tears stream down your face
And I...

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

Cold Play

Move- Thousand Foot Krutch

Look, listen to my voice
If you're making the choice
Tell all the girls and the boys
Either scream or rejoice
Let's make that noise
Either move or we will all be destroyed

Move and show me what you can do
When you step into the circle and shake like we do
Move when you just can't take it
And move if you just feel like breaking it

Can you hear me? Stop, look, listen to my voice,
It was never my choce to feel all alone
This is my home
Back up, you don't know if you've never been here,
You've never been to the place inside, I face my fears
It takes everything I am

If you come near me, stop, look, listen to my voice
If you're making the choice tell all the girls and the boys
Either scream or rejoice
Let's make that noise
Either move or we will all be destroyed
Back up and let go if you've never been here,
You've never been to the place inside, I face my fears,
It takes everything I am

I come crashing to the floor
And I know there must be more like me
I've seen this all before, I can't carry this anymore, break free
Breathe, and leave until the storm is over
'Cause underneath, there's a diamond passing over
So breathe, let's leave until the storm is over,
Because I want to take you away

Hurt

Drop the ball, watch it fall far below
Suck you in, hold your breath
The undertow creeps in slow
Everyone owns a gun deep inside
It's just a matter of how much you let it slide

Help me, help you
They won't be there
Help me, help you
They won't see

It hurts when you need me
And I can't break your fall
And it hurts when you can't see
And it hurts

Drop the switch, scratch the itch, watch it glow
inch by inch, the cutting board
Watch it swing to and fro
Everyone carries one deep inside
It's just a matter of how much you let it slide

And it hurts when you're lonely
And I'm standing right beside you there
And it hurts when you told me
That you'll try this on your own

Hope you never hurt, hope you never cry
Hope you never lose your way tonight
Hope you never crumble, hope you never fall
Hope you never throw away it

Drop the ball, watch it fall below far below
Suck you in, hold your breath, watch it swing


Thousand Foot Krutch

The Art of Breaking

Every time I call you on the phone
I listen to it ring but no one's home
I can't explain the energy that
You give me when I'm left here alone

And every time I pass you on the street
You won't even turn and look at me
I never would of thought that things could
Go this far but please believe me

I'll pick you up, won't let you fall
I'll build your trust and it won't hurt at all,
Your only drug will let you down,
I'm through now, so take me and blow me away

When I feel numb I'll let you know
I won't become what I was before,
You cannot kill what's not your creation
This is the Art of Breaking

I think I might just lose my mind
If I have to watch this one more time
I can't explain how many times I've stayed for you when you were on my mind

No one ever said that it was easy
So come out of the cold and stop your bleeding
I never would of thought that things could
Go this fat, but please believe me

Are you gonna run away, and leave me here alone?
Are you gonna run away, and leave me here?


Thousand Foot Krutch

Focus

How suddenly we move from life to death
In a moment move from full to nothing left
Unshakeable faith how quickly turns to fear
Went from holding you close to wishing You were here
What I cannot do is give it all to You
It's taking over me
Will this sorrow ever leave
No one but You can understand what I'm feeling inside
Right now I can barely breathe let me know You're here tonight
Lately I've been letting go of hope
Caught between life and love what I want and what I know
Give this broken heart a reason why and fill it with the strength to say goodbye
Cause it's so hard to do to give this all to You
Pour down on me like rain and fill this hollow heart again
No one but You can understand what I'm feeling tonight
Lord right now I can barely see through the tears that fall from my eyes
It's so hard to see You please come into focus
I don't even know if I can find the strength to make it one more day
So pour down on me like rain and fill this hollow heart again
No one but You can understand what I'm feeling tonight
Here I come running back to the arms
You've left open wide
Just when I need You
You come into focus
You let me see Your face
Know You're here in this place and kiss these tears away

Casting Pearls

this is the last time

So this is odd,
the painful realization that has all gone wrong.
And nobody cares at all,
and nobody cares at all.

So you buried all your lover's clothes
and burned the letters lover wrote,
but it doesn't make it any better.
Does it make it any better?
And the plaster dented from your fist
in the hall where you had your first kiss
reminds you that the memories will fade.

So this is strange,
our sidestepping has come to be a brilliant dance
where nobody leads at all,
where nobody leads at all.

And the picture frames are facing down
and the ringing from this empty sound
is deafening and keeping you from sleep.
And breathing is a foreign task
and thinking's just too much to ask
and you're measuring your minutes by a clock that's blinking eights.

This is incredible.
Starving, insatiable,
yes, this is love for the first time.
Well you'd like to think that you were invincible.
Yeah, well weren't we all once before we felt loss for the first time?
Well this is the last time.

The Brilliant Dance
Dashboard Confessional

Sunsets and Car Crashes

I see a sense of wonder deep inside your eyes
As we're sparkling and twirling in the twilight
And after three long years, I think that we both need this
So we seal the deal in the parking lot with a kiss

And in case you
And in case you were wondering, you are like a sunset to me
You're all kinds of beautiful as you end my day
And you sweetly retire as stars chase you away

I'd collapse to the grass, with your notes ringing in my head
Let the rain fill my mouth, and in a couple hours I'll be dead
But all the while my lips are whistling our tune
But the beauty lies in how you will revive me soon

And in case you, and in case you
And in case you were wondering, you are like a sunset to me
You're all kinds of beautiful as you end my day
And you sweetly retire as the stars chase you away

And in case you were wondering, you are like a sunset to me
You're all kinds of beautiful as you end my day
And you sweetly retire as the stars chase you away

And in case you were wondering, you are like a hurricane to me
Your violence is beautiful, and your center sweet
Now tell me this, do you know how we'd meet?

And in case you were wondering, you are everything to me (to me)

The Spill Canvas

(Yes this song is that good that I must post it again)

Biking and snow

Well most college students, the smart ones, such as pommer walk and the really smart ones luke drive. Well me, not so smart, bike. I am learning that this can be one of the most dangerous and most thrilling parts of your day. No doubt that i am going end breaking or spraining something before the winter is over. Bikes tend to loss traction such as cars do when there is snow on the ground. I don't take me time or bike slow to class, even when it is snowy out. My bike is going to slide right from under me sometime going down a hill or taking a corner. it is pretty fun but stupidity often is thats why most of us are so exciting.

Working Out

So ya i went and worked out today for the first time in kuyper. Well that is after i found the locker room... anyway. I did about 20 min. on the the eliptical and about 12 on the bike. I really don't feel like that i accomplished much. Maybe tomm i feel the burn but i realize now how much more enjoyable running outside is, but not when the wind chill is gonna be 0 to -1.

Therapy??

Can’t think of what to say
I can’t think of what to do
I just think I might be losing my mind
Can’t stop this agony
Cancel my therapy cause
I just thought of you
and now I feel fine

Collecting the strangest conscience
Apathy returns it’s offense
But only after I get moving
Relax and being the change
In time for the newest age
To help me find out what I’m missing in here

Marriage and Weddings

Wow i can't actually believe that i'm going to a friends wedding tomm. Its that time in out lives tho. No doubt we are gonna have fun and make it crazy. But the fact that i am going to a wedding tomm and then chad and laura are having theirs on the 30th of dec still blows my mind. Yeah i can't wait till im married but during college and there is a lot of commitment not to mention the responsiblities.... wow i'm barely adjusted to college life. Seriously can anyone else see amber and mike "married". acting like a married couple is different then being married. Im happy for them tho. It will be good times tomm. and we are sure to make a time they will never forget.

Frivolity......

I finally saw the Harry Potter movie last night. Wow second great movie that I have seen in less than two weeks. Although its been awhile since I have read the book but a lot of it came back when I saw it. I wished it was longer. I would have sat through it. Although Walk the Line and Harry Potter are both good movies they can't really be compared they are two completely different levels.

Happy Birthday

Yeah so I guess I should tell you all that it is my birthday today. I am officially 19. Doesn't really feel all that different I guess. But I have to rub in that I get my birthday off from school and work but I'm pretty board so I will end going out to the store and work for awhile anyway.

O yeah, I hope you are all having a wonderful break as well. Enjoy the time with your families and look forward to Christmas break the semster is almost over for most of us college kids.

Thanksgiving

Today hasn't been too bad. slept in and then went to church to help serve a free thanksgiving meal and had some awesome food. Went for a 5.5 mile run, a little chilly and windy but i made it. Just gonna relax and chill the rest of the day. I guess a day or two of rest isn't so bad after all.

Thanksgiving Break

Yeah this week is going to be pretty much worthless and a waste of time. There isnt a whole we can do for classes until after we get back from break and then its just a two week count down until christmas break. i can't wait for christmas break its gonna be so nice. Hope i see all around then, those of you that have rarely come back anyway. we'll definately need to hang out.

Walk the Line

Austin Casey and I went out on Saturday night. It was casey's one year so austin and him went on a date to El Charro and I took him on a date to the movies, we saw Walk the Line. It is a really good movie. Definately a must see. really surprised me i wasn't sure what to expect or to think of the movie at first but there is a lot of stuff in there. it has 2hour and 13minute run time. Next up though is the Harry Potter movie.

"The Tide"

And there's three, count 'em three
Children playing on the beach
They were eager to learn,
To be taught and to teach

There's Veronica
She's biting her lip
As she watches the waves turn white at the tip
And there's Vada
Radiating with joy
And luckily she still can't stand the sight of a boy
And lastly there's Dade
His hair dances in the wind
And he's wondering what love is
And why it has to end

And he can't understand
How everyone goes on breathing when true love ends
His mother whispers quietly...
Heaven's not a place that you go when you die
It's that moment in life when you actually feel alive
So live for the moment
And take this advice, live by every word
Love is just a hoax so forget anything that you have heard
And live for the moment now

And there's three, count 'em three
Children growing on the beach
They were eager to learn,
To be taught and to teach

There's Veronica
She's licking her lips
As she waits for her real, first passionate kiss
And there's Vada
Can't admit her jealousy
Of her sister Veronica, and how she's so pretty (and how she's so pretty)
Lastly there's Dade
Still sitting on the dock
Ponders his life, and he skips his rocks
And he wonders when his father will return
But he's not coming back

And he can't understand
How everyone goes on breathing when true love ends
His mother whispers quietly...
Heaven's not a place that you go when you die
It's that moment in life when you actually feel alive
So live for the moment
And take this advice, live by every word
Love is just a hoax so forget everything that you have heard (forget everything)

And there's three, count 'em three
Children missing from the beach
They were eager to learn,
To be taught and to teach

But the sad thing
Is that they never lived passed the age of fifteen
Due to neglect from their mother
Who was bed ridden by her ex-lover, their father
She didn't even notice, or pay much attention
As the tide came in and swept her three into the ocean
Now all her advice, it seems useless

No, heaven's not a place that you go when you die
It's that moment in life when you touch her and you feel alive
So live for the moment

And take this advice, live by every word
Love's completely real, so forget anything that you've heard
And live for the moment now

The Spill Canvas

Sunsets and Car Crashes

I see a sense of wonder deep inside your eyes
As we're sparkling and twirling in the twilight
And after three long years, I think that we both need this
So we seal the deal in the parking lot with a kiss

And in case you
And in case you were wondering, you are like a sunset to me
You're all kinds of beautiful as you end my day
And you sweetly retire as stars chase you away

I'd collapse to the grass, with your notes ringing in my head
Let the rain fill my mouth, and in a couple hours I'll be dead
But all the while my lips are whistling our tune
But the beauty lies in how you will revive me soon

And in case you, and in case you
And in case you were wondering, you are like a sunset to me
You're all kinds of beautiful as you end my day
And you sweetly retire as the stars chase you away

And in case you were wondering, you are like a sunset to me
You're all kinds of beautiful as you end my day
And you sweetly retire as the stars chase you away

And in case you were wondering, you are like a hurricane to me
Your violence is beautiful, and your center sweet
Now tell me this, do you know how we'd meet?

And in case you were wondering, you are everything to me (to me)

The Spill Canvas

AudioBlogging

Wow this might just be the coolest thing i have seen yet. Audioblogging now how more attached could you get than being able to post be merely calling and leaving an audio message. I dont know how often ill use but its nice just to know its there if i do need it. so yeah enjoy it.

Weekend Movie Poll

Johnny Cash:Walk the Line or Harry Potter 4: The Goblet of Fire? or both?

Monitor problems

Well I had a 19 inch CRT that I got from the Thrift Store they said it was broke and so I took it home to check it out. Well it was fine so I brought it to college about a week later I figured out what was wrong. Once in a blue moon it would turn everything a lovely tint of pee-yellow. All ya had to do was hit a little and it would go back to white. Well that day is no longer. It has been stuck that yellow for over a week. I went home and switched out an old at home from my parents flat panel which is now at central, with me. Those 19 inch viewsonics take up a lot of room.

Snow is Dangerous

So I went out to eat for my Dad's birthday and I picked up some warmer clothes and switched monitors(thats another story). I was walking back from the Kuyper lot to my dorm and I was almost to the pond. Of course its cold and the wind is blowing and I hear this cracking noise. I stop and just as I turn my head about five feet from an eight foot limb falls about 15 feet out of a pine tree. It was close and scared the crap outta me cuz I stopped and saw it happen. My luck with tress lately has been amiss.

Snow Anyone?

I guess its that time of the year. Rain this morning and then 1-3 inches of snow tonight and this afternoon. the temperatures were in the 60s on saturday. thats Iowa weather for ya. We will see whether our weathermen our right.

Airsoft Wars

well as most of you know we have been warned by the RA's here at central to stop using airsoft guns because they aren't allowed.

Hey guys,

With the recent addition of airsoft guns to our floor and building I just wanted to make you aware of college policy regarding this.

Section 33 of the student handbook says:

Weapons on campus--For security reason, Central does not allow weapons on campus. This includes firearms, non-firearms projectile weapons (BB-guns, paintball guns, Airsoft guns, blows, blowguns etc.), and edged weapons (knives with blades longer than 3', swards, spears, etc.)

If I see anymore airsoft guns I will take them. All other student life officials are to do the same. I hope that this clears anything up. Have a good night.

Well i just purchased three more of them. so i have to hide them all now. the RAs havent said anything recently. Also be aware i can't have my amazonian ancestors blow gun here either, its also against the rules to blow also. So i can't go around blowing....either. sorry guys. ok on a less gay note this whole thing is stupid i think im just going to unload on him at some random time in my darth vader helmet. there isn't a whole lot he can do about it they pose no threat or harm or destruction. ill just take them off campus or put them in my car or neither and just leave them in my room.

Redneck Rollercoaster

Looks like the concensus is that we are going to build ourselves an amusement park ride this summer or sometime. I will do some working on the numbers i guess and see what it would take but we really can't do a whole lot until we get a car and supplies.
Its gonna be a blast if we get this thing done. There will be people lining up to try it out. yeah so i guess thats it. any suggestions or problems you see?

here is the link to where Pommer got the idea.
http://www.ebaumsworld.com/redneckrollercoaster.html

Globe Update

They have erected and installed a lighted map and informational panel where the globe was stored. They started earlier than 7.45 this morning because i rode by on my way to class and they had the cap off and were working. I didnt see the globe anywhere though.

Nothing Better

Will someone please call a surgeon
Who can crack my ribs and repair this broken heart
That you're deserting for better company?
I can't accept that it's over...
I will block the door like a goalie tending the net
In the third quarter of a tied-game rivalry

So just say how to make it right
And i swear i'll do my best to comply

Tell me am i right to think that there could be nothing better
Than making you my bride and slowly growing old together

I feel I must interject here you're getting carried away feeling sorry for yourself
With these revisions and gaps in history
So let me help you remember.
I've made charts and graphs that should finally make it clear.
I've prepared a lecture on why i have to leave

So please back away and let me go
I can't my darling i love you so...

Oh, oh

Tell me am i right to think that there could be nothing better
Than making you my bride and slowly growing old together
Don't you feed me lines about some idealistic future
Your heart won't heal right if you keep tearing out the sutures

I admit that i have made mistakes and i swear
I'll never wrong you again
You've got a lure i can't deny,
But you've had your chance so say goodbye
Say goodbye


Postal Service

Mike and Amber's Wedding

Well... its about that time. We need everyone that is going to the wedding to chip in some dough so that we can afford show our honorable lazy butts up at the wedding. Yeah so far its me and Pommer either send us an email or post. tell us how much you are willing to donate. If you can't get it to one of us before we can cover it until after the wedding as long as we don't have to cover the whole thing. It would be helpful mayb for some good ideas for gifts as well......good gift ideas.

Yesterday's Feelings

Close my eyes and move to the back of my mind
Where worries are washed out to sea
See the changes, people's faces blurred out
Like the sun spots or raindrops

Now all those feelings, those yesterdays feelings will all be lost in time
but today I've wasted away for today is on my mind

Left the only worries I had in my hands
Away from the light in my eyes
Holding tight and try not to hide how I feel
'Cause feelings mean nothing now

All those feelings, those yesterdays feelings will all be lost in time
but today I've wasted away for today is on my mind
(yeah today is on my mind)

Now I can't care to worry
I'm feeling so lonely
Breaking apart all this love in my heart

Close my eyes and move to the back of my mind
Where feelings mean nothing now

All those feelings, those yesterdays feelings will all be lost in time (all be lost in time)
But today I've wasted away for today is on my mind
for today is on my mind
yeah today is on my mind

Now I can't care to worry
I'm feeling so lonely
Breaking apart all this love in my heart

The Used

Inspiring Events

So this weekend was warming up to be another run of the mill adventures. So friday night luke was up at ISU and justin zito and casey showed up at my dorm and we soon met up with brandon. well needless to say we were going to go round up some fun. We can never plan anything it just kind of happens. Well I fell out of a tree and scraped up my back trying to put someones clothes up the tree. brandon was half naked because he was going to jump into the fountain. So yeah i have the branch and the wound to prove it. I'll get the pictures up some time. We went through all the dorms trying to find women to clean it out. Amy Vanworkem(sp?) whose parents are both doctors cleaned it out for me in Mindy's room. Everyone was pretty impressed. thats was pretty much it for the night. Saturday night luke was back in town. We had an airsoft gun fight in my dorm room because justin and casey went to osky and bought automatic guns. We walked around and shot people and then we all went all went to osky to see if we could buy more weapons. needless to say the car was packed with many of them. three aifsoft pistols, two airsoft automatics, an airsoft shotgun, am airsoft rifle, and a butterfly knife. I also purchased a Darth Vader helmet, its a full fledged helmet. I went around dressed in all black to try and freak some people out, even though the central campus was completely dead. Someone took a picture of me on the bridge with their cellphone camera and this one girl in a computer lab freaked out cuz i just walked in sat down at the computer next to her and didnt say anthing. She left running. it was good weekend. o and i can fit myself into a three foot by three foot plexi-glass box.


Well today I'm sick. Fever and splitting headache. I guess thats what i get for having such a good weekend.

Fantasy Football

I tried posting this once lets see if it will work for me now. I have hit a new low Three players on my stating team on a bye week. Thing is only there is only one player that i could have switched and that only would have given my 3.4 points.Fantasy football turned out to be a nightmare no fantasy like they lead you to believe.
I am soon to have a 1-8 record one worse then the Packers record is soon to be. They haven't finished with a losing record in 13 seasons, its crazy. Farve is still breaking records even though his team is playing aweful. the team is missing Ferguson, Green, Fisher is out this week. they have a new o-line this year, and they have the 10th worse defense in the league. Looks like a rebuilding year.

Thievery

It feels good to steal. Well anyway I get back to the Kuyper parking lot on Sunday night and I go to get on bike to go back to my dorm. Well what i find instead is my broken chain lying on the ground with a crappy old beat up bike in its place. Needless to say i was a little pissed. so i walked. Monday i fixed up another bike that came into the store to replace my stolen one. Today i decided to take a ride around campus to look for it, being nice out and all. So i get out of spanish lab and 10 minutes later i am riding the new bike and holding my other bike as i ride along. I found it at a pod and he neglected lock it up. So i have my bike back and he lost his old bike and a seat. They are now both registered and it made my day after sleeping through class this morning.

My eight o' clock

So yeah i felt like crap yesterday because i didnt sleep well at all on monday night. This morning i was gonna get up and do some reading for class but i hit the snooze. Then some how managed to lose my cell phone in my bed somewhere. I have succussfully slept through my first class. But its all good i was "sick".

"Tangled" is what I'm feeling

I'm full of regret
For all things that I've done and said
And I don't know if it'll ever be ok to show
My face 'round here
Sometimes I wonder if I disappear

Would you ever turn your head and look
See if I'm gone
Cause I fear

There is nothing left to say to you
That you wanna hear
That you wanna know
I think I should go
The things I've done are way too shameful

Your just innocent
A helpless victim of a spider's web
And I'm an insect
Goin after anything that I can get

So you better turn your head and run
And don't look back
Cause I fear

There is nothing left to say
To you
That you wanna hear
That you wanna know
I think I should go
The things I've done are way too shameful

Maroon 5

College Homework Sucks

I'm sitting procrastinating still another night. Putting off as much as I can and still manage to be able to go to class with some honor. There is no motivation. The minutes just tick away another night wasted. The pile still stands. 2- four pages research papers, spanish comp. paper, Spanish Test, All the spanish homework, Math test, Math Homework, Physics Homework, Reading for intersections, Labs, and last but not least Reading for Intersections Honors this all in the next week and half. A plus is I don't have to do any of it. However the people paying to put me through all of this would not be too happy if i didn't do it.... guess that means that a few late nights are in store. o well whats sleep anyway.

New American Classic- Taking Back Sunday

"We've got to get better," I said, "It's all in your head."
We could live through these letters or forget it all together
See the months they don't matter it's the days I can't take
When the hours move to minutes and I'm seconds away

Just ask the question come untie the knot
Say you won't care, say you won't care
Retrace the steps as if we forgot
Say you won't care, say you won't care
Try to avoid it but there's not a doubt
And there's one thing I can do nothing about

When all that we need is just a reaction
It's too much to ask for when there's no attraction anymore
If chasing our dreams is just a distraction
I want to remember when I know that I can't go back

Just ask the question come untie the knot
Say you won't care, say you won't care
Retrace the steps as if we forgot
Say you won't care, say you won't care
Try to avoid it but there's not a doubt
And there's one thing I can do nothing about...

RNC

That's right i could have met Ken Mehlman chairman of the Republican National Commitee. I guess thats what i get for being central college republican. i would have even gotten to drive a golf cart and a free lamberti t-shirt. I didnt decide to go tonight however it would have been really cool but i had all day thursday free.

Everything once familiar
now grows faint
The uncertainity rises
Our hearts grow colder, callous
Hopelessness and helplessness consume us
Searching for those minutes and those hours
where we can escape
The world doesn't just disappear
when you close your eyes, does it?

Living in Your Letters

I'm always assuming the worst,
but you're going on none the less
& there's nothing to cusion your heart led fall.
Letters from further away
keep pulling me close to home.
And there's something to cushion my callous sighs.
And I know that you hope for
longer good-byes
embracing for forever
and falling in your eyes.

Pouring over photographs.
I'm living in your letters.
Breathe deeply from this envelope
it smells like you & I can't be
without that scent. It's filling me
with all you mean to me.

Continually failing these trials
but you stand by me nonetheless
& you won't let me sink
though I'm beggin you.
Phone calls from further away
& messages on my machine,
but I don't ever tell you this distance
seems terrible.
There is no need to test my heart,
with useless space.
These roads go on forever
& so do you and I.

So I'll hit the pavement
it's gotta be better than waiting
& pushing you far away
cause I'm scared.
So I'll take my chances
& head on my way up there.
Cause turning to you is like falling in love when you're ten

Dashboard Confessional

EveryBody.

When your day is long.And the night.The night is yours alone.When you're sure you've ha.enough of this life.Well hang on.Don't let yourself go.Cause everybody cries.And everybody hurts.Sometimes.Sometimes everything is wrong.Now it's time to sing along.When your day is night alone.Hold on, hold on.If you feel like letting go.Hold on.If you think you've had too much of this life.Well hang on.Cause everybody hurts.Take comfort in your friends.Everybody hurts.Don't throw your hand.Oh, no.Don't throw your hand.When you feel like you're alone.No, no, no, you're not alone.If you're on your own.In this life.The days and nights are long.When you think you've had too much.Of this life.To hang on

So, hold on, hold on
Hold on, hold on
Hold on, hold on
Hold on, hold on
Everybody hurts
You are not alone

Dashboard Confessional

Corolla Glory

This is the creation of the corolla in her past glory. She is now headed for Doug's after a night of excitement and destruction that can be found here on Pommer's blog. Chris, Luke and I used about 5 cans of orange paint, 3 red, 2 blue some 2 white and some primer. This is the general lee of Marion county. We added 5, thats right 5 lights and we still have the the two headlights as well. It couldn't look any better or have been a better finishing touch to the largest project in the history of the highschool. We spent some long friday nights working on her. Notice the exhaust on the side, thanks to the combined efforts of Luke, Ryan and I (thank sam for the food). It was a wicked machine. I would have been stunned to see something like this on the road. It was a good thing but all good things come to an end , as the saying goes.

Saturday Night Ride

All I gots to say is Saturday night in Pella, Wal-Mart, and some redneck engineering.

Dorm Life

only in college can you come back to your living area and find like and then on top of that expect it to stay that way for sometime because you don't have to clean it up and there isn't much anyone can do about it.

Recovering

Listening
Thinking
Walking
Seeing
Talking
Its dull
There is an empty hole.
Trust
There is an aching.
Faith
Time passes slowly
Patience
To be whole once again
Forgiveness
To have happiness
Love

Stay focused, don't slip
Keep your head above water
Reember what He said

Where does your heart lie?
Where did it go?
What if it never changes?
What if its not the same?
What did we have?
What did we lose?
Will it return?
Will you return?
Will you fight?
Will we win?
What does it mean
to lose everything?
Am I lost?
Where am I going?
Will I survive?
I have to,
I have no choice
I'm not lost
Theres just so much
I need direction, a focus
I can't do it alone
I'm not alone
It's not about me anymore
There is nothing more I can do
But let go
the pain the sorrow
It will be ok
I must let go
the hope the fears
He won't let me go
He won't let me fall
I will be ok
As long as give it up

Falling

this drowning sorrow is shaking me
more than it ever has before
the road signs reading bitter end
leave me suspect of a crime

the city air chokes me today
more than it ever had before
i’m nervous to feel deserved
by these street signs anymore

are you
going to
be waiting up when i get home
we’ll stay up all night
getting drunk and watching sunsets on our porch

falling for you
falling for you
i fell for you

these empty feelings question me
of who i think i’ve become
mind is ticking life away
asking if you are the one

i’m dying to explain my heart
to you now
there’s so much on my mind it’s tearing me apart

Slipping into Memories

Those Summer Stars

Do you remember the time when you and i were fine...
and we were better then then we'd ever been before
you came back to me after walking out my door
you would call me on the phone before you even got home
without me you said you were all alone...
the cold wind that blows all the things i used to know
how could it play so fast never thought you'd be part of my past
would i trade it all again to get you out of my head?...
and my heart is breaking
would you hear me baby
as the tears are longing
for what it used to be.

Math Master

So its monday and it sucks waking up. But this morning i woke up the faster i ever have on a monday. I realize after i hit the snooze button that i have a math test today. i have to pass it with 100% in order pass the class, no big deal ya know. I didnt remember all weekend that i had this test so needless to stay i didnt study at all. I have an 8 o'clock and and got there early studied for about 20 minutes and then i studies after class for about a half an hour. I was a little nervous. It was an integral skills exam, calculus stuff. I was the first one done, in 12 minutes, and i passed. Thanks to Mr. linn and his massive amount of homework, paid off after all. it's a good monday for once.